I truly dig technology but today I'm making a decision on what programs I truly enjoy and what I will listen to day in day out. I've found that by me having so many podcasts programs that I now find myself not listening to "0" podcasts because I have allowed myself to become overwhelmed with them and now I have found myself having a "eh" attitude toward technology and that is not me. I have even found myself having those same feelings toward Christianity and I know this is not me. I have allowed myself time and time again to fall away from blogging and allow micro-blogging to become the norm in my life and in return I have found myself becoming sick of the web altogether.
What happened to me? I used to love the web, tech stories and now I'm at a point where I can care less. Maybe it's the fact that I'm not working? Maybe it's the fact of constant attacks on President Obama? Maybe it's the fact that I'm so ready to leave the state of Missouri and never come back?
One thing that feels good is the fact that I'm taken time to sit and write this post...that I'm taken time to just sit and "write" instead of tweeting or checking my Facebook status. I think I've become the thing that I've always loathed...a lazy, spoiled, narcissistic person that I have to check my twitter and Facebook every nano-second to see who has left me a reply. That's a new low. I've found myself not being in the mood to record podcasts any more, not really wanting to socialize on the web. As the song from Pink Floyd sums it up for me, I have become comfortably numb.
I don't enjoy listening to Leo Laporte and the gang the way I used to...I feel I am just going through the motions and I hate feeling this way. I have to make some hard decisions and I have to make them now.
